DOĞRU ODAK FROM A CHILD’S POİNT OF VİEW

I am 10 years old… an age you adults would rather be right now…an age where I long to grow up as soon as possible wondering why you adults want to change places(be in my shoes) with me so desperately.. From your point of view, I might be a little princess whose every wish is fulfilled, who sleeps in fluffy beds and who is the apple of the family but the truth is, my inner self is nothing like that.. I wish you could grasp how hard it is for me to feel in dept to you when you are so giving and open to me. Maybe that is the reason why I started to question myself at this age. The process from “the cute little one” to “the grown up”! I am entering an age where lots of things are happening with me,. physically and mentally .My behavior models ,my character, my emotional being, everything is changing at this age now. My parents and my teachers, who have been nothing but “givers” to this age, are now “wanters”. Oh how much expectation they have! And I thought this “giving “period was endless.. This is the what they are talking right now.. They say that if I get good grades in Math’s and Science I could be a doctor or engineer. I shouldn’t worry about art they say, because an artist wouldn’t make a decent living anyway. But what will happen if I like to draw for hours and really enjoy this whereas on the other hand hate to memorize math equations? Will I be jobless? Another thing that really makes me question all this is, what will happen to all those well educated doctors and engineers when one day robots will operate and machines will take over the world ? Adults answer “ if not this profession,then something similar will do!” and they add that if I want to be really successful I need to start right now. Then , what is the best way to learn Maths and Science? You guessed it, solving hundreds of questions(tests?). You need to answer 99 out of 100 correctly of course. Your big sister went through this path before you and look where it has gotten her, she is accepted to the best engineering school in Turkey”. What means “the best school” for you? The school which has you solve the most math’s problems? Don’t get me wrong, I am not questioning these because I am lazy or running away from studying .I just want to understand how this “best” school, which will affect my future so much, is about. I am questioning because I don’t want to fool myself or you by letting me get drawn into a system I do not believe in. You will need to really persuade me now. You need to persuade me that this system will make me happier and more successful in life. Ooops. .You are silent.. You are without answers I think.. Do you know why? Because you yourself don’t believe in it either! I guess you want to be off the hook by placing yourselves as the good teachers and parents you are by making me as the protagonist of the story. But you know what? My dreams are so much further than that. I want to build my own future. With my own decisions. Of course by consulting you and valuing your experiences. My aim is not to be “looked good upon” by the society or my family. My aim is to find my true self. I know I am still young from your point of view. I must be overlooking many details. You might be wright, again from your point of view. But I don’t see myself as that young as you claim me to be. There are so many thing I want to do.. I want to tour the world, see many countries as I can, meet different people and dance with their music, learn their traditions and taste different food. I believe I can know myself much better if I know as many different people I can. Beside other countries,I want to know my own country as well.I want to visit villages and learn about all the different crops they grow on their lands. I want to actually see all those mountains, rivers, lakes teachers try to teach us during Geography lessons. I want to shop from farmer’s markets in small villages and try to cook new delicious receipes with my mom. I want to meet all kinds of people .I want to read scientific magazines and books and go to Science museums with all that knowledge. I want to make scientific tests for hours there. I want to be included in the endless confliction between Tesla and Edison .I want to know if everything would be totally different if Tesla had launched his electrical current system that he believed in so much? I really would like to ponder on this. I want to see Tesla’s museum and the places he lived. I want to know all the great mathematicians and ask them about the truth about their mathematical formulas we have been asked to memorize at school. I want to know how much of this information that fills my brain would I be using in everyday life. I believe that it is a shame if I would be a great doctor one day but would use only 20 % of what I have learned . I don’t want to be that “great doctor” who earns a lot but is antisocial, egocentric ,has no joie de vivre and is selfish. Maybe I just want to be a simple farmer who grows organic walnuts without any harmful pesticides .I want to grow my walnuts healthily and collect them one by one with my own bare hands .Maybe this will be my way of making money , by giving people healthy pesticide free food! I don’t want to listen to success stories of wars where people killed people for an acre of land. I don’t want to memorize all the dates of those wars in Turkey or around the world. I want to know those emperors and sultans and artists! I want to understand how the transition from glamorous Rokoko period gave its place to the Renaissance simplicity. I want to compare traditional art to modern art. I want to understand how Frida felt drawing those portraits while dealing with endless excruciating pain. I want to also understand how Van Gogh felt drawing the “Sunflowers” while living alone in agony and penniless. I want to understand the bureaucracy of my own country for example. Why are there ministries, what are their duties, what is an “official newspaper”? I want to know all these. How are government rules formed and what happens if people don’t obey them, what should a person who wants to open up a new business do, why are there “civil servants” and what should one do to becaome one?I want to understand. I want to be able to be by myself for 5 straight days .I want to be able to everything on my own without depending on someone else. I want to be able to patch my own pants or cook a meal to nourish myself, iron and do the laundry for example. I want to be ready if one day, maybe 7-8 years later who knows, I will need to move to another city or country and if I should live all by myself. And last but not least, I want to fall in love! Don’t get me wrong, not only to the opposite sex but to a plant I planted or the beauty of the nature but most importantly to the profession I will chose! I want to do what I do with passion, with love. I want to be someone who doesn’t work for the vacation but for the love to what I am doing. You see now for all these reasons please let me choose what I want to be, my profession, myself!I want to choose my profession to which I will dedicate my life by reading, investigating, travelling and meeting new people. Since your aim is to raise happy children, then trust us to do that! Spend some quality time with us . Instead of criticizing and finding faults please just observe us.See our abilities and potential. Respect us and support us in our mission. Maybe 20 years from now I might be a film director, a janitor, a teacher or a mine worker , maybe a farmer or an employee at a bank, a scientist or an artist.. whatever the future holds I promise you that I will be a person who is full of emphathy for all living things, a person who respects and protects nature, an animal lover, a person who feels responsible towards her/his family .. All in all I WILL BE A GOOD PERSON…JUST TRUST ME…

I want to understand the bureaucracy of my own country for example. Why are there ministries, what are their duties, what is an “official newspaper”? I want to know all these. How are government rules formed and what happens if people don’t obey them, what should a person who wants to open up a new business do, why are there “civil servants” and what should one do to becaome one?I want to understand. I want to be able to be by myself for 5 straight days .I want to be able to everything on my own without depending on someone else. I want to be able to patch my own pants or cook a meal to nourish myself, iron and do the laundry for example. I want to be ready if one day, maybe 7-8 years later who knows, I will need to move to another city or country and if I should live all by myself.

And last but not least, I want to fall in love! Don’t get me wrong, not only to the opposite sex but to a plant I planted or the beauty of the nature but most importantly to the profession I will chose! I want to do what I do with passion, with love. I want to be someone who doesn’t work for the vacation but for the love to what I am doing. You see now for all these reasons please let me choose what I want to be, my profession, myself!I want to choose my profession to which I will dedicate my life by reading, investigating, travelling and meeting new people. Since your aim is to raise happy children, then trust us to do that! Spend some quality time with us . Instead of criticizing and finding faults please just observe us.See our abilities and potential. Respect us and support us in our mission. Maybe 20 years from now I might be a film director, a janitor, a teacher or a mine worker , maybe a farmer or an employee at a bank, a scientist or an artist.. whatever the future holds I promise you that I will be a person who is full of emphathy for all living things, a person who respects and protects nature, an animal lover, a person who feels responsible towards her/his family .. All in all I WILL BE A GOOD PERSON…JUST TRUST ME…